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Came home shortly from the city, pretty tired after a big photo walk, put things quickly in order (we left in a hurry, my son had to catch his flight to Budapest), lit a bunch of candles, put on a ring I haven't had for a good while and painted my nails bright red, just to feel more appropriate for the day, and drank up almost the half big bottle of Julmust (that's a Swedish Christmas special soda, somewhat similar to coke) - so this is Christmas...

My Christmas, on my own, after a long while.

I know many people feel sad this time of the year when they don't have anybody to share it with, or when these dates are connected to some very unpleasant memory, like losing someone dear - I could tell a couple of stories when I have seen people crying on the holy days... I heard yesterday but didn't check the correctness of the information, that in Stockholm alone 94 000 (ninety-four thousand!) men "celebrates" lonely, having no any family members and I don't remember the number of women.

Although I am in fact alone, I don't feel lonely for even a second. Called my parents and my godmother, was invited to two or three places with friends, met a few of them and I have sooooo many more friends to think of...

When I am so much connected with lots of people all year round, online and offline, sometimes it is even nice to have my own time, and this Christmas Eve is such a rare occasion. 

As I didn't even have time to send out a lot of season greetings yet and a newsletter is really due, not to mention uploading all the songs of my new album This Way, Sweetheart! to my sites with all the info, lyrics and etcetera (everything double: in English AND in Hungarian), I was thinking to write some nice thoughts here.

Two things popped into my mind: one is the gratitude I feel for all those people who are around me and support me in any ways, I can't list all the forms of support: practical things when I need help with something (and these last couple of months have been really probing for me), a smile, an encouraging comment, a following on Twitter etc, being my friend on my countless networks, and so on, and so on, these all count and make me stronger, so that I can give them and to others even more beautiful songs, pictures and other creations.

So please know that if you are in any of these ways connected to me, you were and are contributing at least a tiny little bit to my singing and all other artistic manifestations. And I am very thankful for that, and at these moments I am sending very nice vibes to all my relatives, friends, fans, listeners, readers, followers, fellow artists, business contacts and you name it, tons of love to you!!!

The Christmas tree in our street

I stop here for a moment and think after it: even those very few people in the world I know about that they are my enemies, are helping me to move forward, they do. For they give me a chance to look and see how have I caused that they became enemies from friends and if I have to correct something, I am willing to do that. Which makes me a better and stronger person, hopefully, so thank you boys and girls! :-)

Also, the reasons why I liked them in the first place (which only grew as I knew more about them, obviously, because more communication and more common realities inevitably bring about more affinity between people), the reasons are still there: I still admire certain attributes, abilities or works of them. Although as not being friends any more, we don't do anything together, but that (and whatever theyhave done to me) doesn't give me a reason to "un-love" them.

And if I flow love and admiration even toward those people I shouldn't bother about, I reckon their attitude towards me can't harm me. And it just feels good; the more love one feels towards others, the better one is doing, isn't it so? Thank you again, for giving me a reason to feel more love.

I think this is how my personal Christmas rambling should conclude:  

May The Power Of Love Be With You 

Love-ly Christmas everyone!

-- Andrea

ps. in the meantime, had a nice piece of chocolate and a Chai tea, maybe not typical for this day, but was it  delicious :-))

(You can read this also in Andrea's Stories)